February 2012
7 posts
Out of reach;
I want you infinitely more now that I can’t have you.
I tried to brace myself for the worst;
but that surely wasn’t enough. I’m devastated right now. I want to talk to you so badly right now like how things used to be, but I can’t because you’re not there for me anymore and you never will be again. I hate knowing that one visit could have changed all of this. I hate having to force myself to make a once-huge part of my life become nothing. I don’t remember...
You know;
I don’t like change, and I don’t like to be ignored. Why violate that? Grrr.
Distance;
It’s hard not being able to see you on a regular basis, or any basis at all for that matter. What bothers me is that it really isn’t even the distance that is what is keeping us apart, but it’s our lives. I wish I had a binding reason to keep trying, but all I have is hope that things will get better. I hate that there’s no tangible end to this. I hate not being in control....
Build-up clean up;
Ever have those days where you want to cry for no particular reason, but just because the tears are there and ready to be shed? I feel like today is one of those days. I don’t want to keep it all inside. That could be detrimental. But I can’t keep it all inside either. I hate not knowing, and right now, I don’t know.
When good days go bad;
I feel like it’s worse than just have an overall bad day to begin with. These give you hope and tear them down. I hate feeling helpless.
January 2012
3 posts
Peeved;
I get so annoyed when you are in the middle of a good conversation with someone and they just stop texting you back out of the blue.
Superman;
I wonder if he knows how much that I miss him.
Jealousy;
I don’t know why this is so hard for me. I trust you. You haven’t given me any reason to doubt that. I don’t know why it bothers me so much. I hate that I am a control freak.
December 2011
7 posts
Over thinking;
I need to stop second-guessing myself. Why do I have a harder time trusting myself than trusting others? I need to learn to respect the decisions that I make, because I obviously made them for a reason. I’m just glad I didn’t act on my nervous impulses. I’m glad I didn’t screw anything up. This is too good to give up just yet.
Is that really so;
My mind is telling me one thing but my heart another. I don’t know how I feel about this anymore. I don’t want to just keep pretending, but I can’t stop because I don’t know if I even am or not. I wish I knew myself better. I really just don’t want to hurt you.
Where did the sparks go? Did they every exist in the first place? Or was I just blinded from the today? I...
Friends and family;
People say you get to choose your friends and not your family, which is true, but is that really a plus? I think the reason being is that family is irreplaceable. I would rather have the presence of mortality than choice, because you can choose what your family sees of you and how they are to you. It’s a choice in and of itself.
Precious;
He wrote me a letter and snuck it into one of my boxes. Finding that little surprise topped an already great day. I’m simply the luckiest.
Melts my heart;
A guys that’s down to watch chick flicks with me <3
Pet Peeve #23
When the whole world decides to text you at the same time, after having a whole hour where no one was talking to you. Thanks guys, for blowing up my phone.
Restless;
I think it’s funny how the one night you don’t text me “good night” is the one night where couldn’t get myself to sleep, woke up throughout the night, and couldn’t for the life of me sleep in happily. Hm, at least I have assurance for tonight.
November 2011
18 posts
wongcatherine:
I want a hug, from you. Because no one could compare, your arms of two. You shared a connection, the scent through my nose, the tippy of my toes. Protection, sensation, lingers, with a touch of your finger. I beg for a hug, one last time.
Greatness;
I love those great days where great time is spent with great people. And then there’s the downer that school starts again tomorrow.
Bundle of nerves;
I’m so nervous I could sleep right now. I think I have anxiety issues.
Too close for comfort;
Shouldn’t you be the one that knows me best? Shouldn’t you be the one that is most understanding of me? If that’s so, then why do I feel the way horrid way I do when I tell you about someone that is so important to me? Something about this just doesn’t feel right.
Expecting the unexpected;
I’m so scared to tell you, and I know exactly why. I have absolutely no clue how you are going to react.
What is this;
This is the first time I actually don’t want to talk to you, and I don’t know what to make of it. What a weird feeling.
You continue to amaze me;
I feel the exact same way. Part luck, pure bliss.
Frustrated;
I apologized three times, wished you a happy birthday, gave you balloons and space, and I don’t hear even a word from you. How is that supposed to make me feel? Honestly, I didn’t even think what I did was horribly wrong; it was totally on accident and you know that. You know how bad I feel. Bleh.
I should have seen it coming;
After the most amazing week, I should have expected something to go wrong. I just didn’t expect this much to come crashing down all at once. Great timing, life.
I know you're not angry at me or anything;
But in-text smileys make all the difference. What on earth is going onnnn? ):
How adorable;
I was so nervous and jittery today! I got to see him, though. It’s so cute, some of the people that he introduced me to told me how much they’ve heard about me from him. And I’d look to him and he’d be smiling and blushing. Blasdakldsjfa what a wonderous day. And I’m ending my night with a midterm. What joy.
wishonwyatt asked: hi felicia you're beautiful k bye
brycelife asked: Hi(:
October 2011
4 posts
Surprise, surprise;
Why do I keep learning things about you that I love?
I’m just too lucky.
You make me ask myself everyday;
What I ever did so right that made me deserve someone as amazing as you.
It’s a shame these things don’t last forever.
July 2011
1 post
ICON 2011
<3 Best eleven days.
June 2011
22 posts
She wants you to fight for her. So if you let her...
Sometimes we expect more from others because we...
(via supjerbear, kelvinween)
Quick rant;
For almost the whole day today, I was feeling really content. And then miserable. And then better. And then sad. So now I’m kinda bummed.
I can’t wait to get out of here. <3
I find it cute.
When the person you like texts you goodmorning or calls you. Leaves you messages. Checks up on you all the time, just to see if you’re alright. Gets worried about you and everything.
I actually don’t find that annoying. I know some people do feel suffocated. But I love it when someone does that. Keeps me smiling for days. It just shows, that you are thinking about me. That you care.
I really like you.
x3amandaa:
I constantly tell myself that almost everyday, but it’s so hard to tell you. I’m sure you already know anyway, probably even more than I do. I doubt myself too often. I think it’s mostly the fact that letting you know will make me vulnerable to your actions, and possibly give you all advantage of my feelings. Or maybe the fact that you’ll stop trying ‘cause you’ll have nothing to work...
findingsomewhere:
Everybody knows why they feel happy, but no one seems to quite understand their sadness. It’s just there.
Intellectual conversations.
nikki-lodeon:
I love having these conversations because they actually make you think deeper than on the surface and usually leads to mild arguing whenever the two of you disagree on something. It’s fun and an easy way to find out if the two of you have anything in common too.
Lessons with F.O.I.L.
johnyr:
First: The word first can have so much meaning towards it. Whether it’s first impressions, first kiss, or a first date. You may not be anyone’s first, and they may not be yours as well. Keep in mind that you cannot always be simply at the top. Being first isn’t always necessarily a good thing. Make sure you know what priorities to put first and who comes first; which is ultimately you....
Looks don't mean a thing, if everything inside is...
You can try to forget what happened, but you can...