My mind is telling me one thing but my heart another. I don’t know how I feel about this anymore. I don’t want to just keep pretending, but I can’t stop because I don’t know if I even am or not. I wish I knew myself better. I really just don’t want to hurt you.

Where did the sparks go? Did they every exist in the first place? Or was I just blinded from the today? I don’t know what part of me to follow anymore, because my judgement is obviously skewed either way. Why does it have to be a lose-lose situation when just yesterday it was the best thing that had ever happened to me?